In my about section I say something about how my blog is about pretty much everything. I'm interesting that way. I joke and say that I talk about everything from my love of God to my love of David Radcliffe's new sexy body. Of course, if you know me (or have read me for any length of time) you recognize the sarcasm. I know that it's wrong to lust. I'm really not much of a luster. I am; however, sarcastic. I also assume that she was turned off about my saying something about how you'll find a blog about pubic hair next to a blog about God. I'm such a heathen.
I felt bad at first because I wondered if I was offensive but then I felt unapologetic. First of all, I was kidding about David Radcliffe. He's like, what? Four years old? That's gross. Second, it would be lying to say I was anything different than who I am in the "about me" section of my blog. I really do blog about everything from God to pubic hair. It's not like I talk about God's pubic hair. That would be crossing the line!
I totally respect this bloggers choice to post (or not post) whatever she wants on her blog. That's her personal space and I too, reserve the right to post whatever I want. That part I get. The part I don't get is how me being jokey and honest constitutes as "bad morals." Especially when I'm talking about bringing Jesus further into our lives.
Perhaps this was a simple mistake but it feels exclusionary. Like, even though I'm a Christian and love God in ways so big that I can't even describe, I'm not good enough to share how I love him because I made a joke. C'mon Christians- brothers and sisters- we're better than that! Here is the blog. I'm sharing it with you because I think it's share-worthy.
Setting A Place For Jesus
At around 5:30 every day, our home falls into a twilight zone. What is normally a relatively serene and organized house turns into chaos. Homework needs to be done and dinner needs to be cooked. My husband isn’t home yet, the kids are hungry, the dog is full of energy and Mommy, well Mommy is on her last leg. It’s at this time of day when I need Jesus the most. By this point, it’s been hours since I said my morning or afternoon prayers and my spiritual tank is running on empty.
When things get rough, I have this tendency to try to fix it on my own. In the morning I pray that God may help me be a better mother and wife, I surrender it all to him but then 5:30 hits, the going gets tough and I’m all, “step aside, Jesus, you’re underfoot!” And since when I ask him to step aside is when I’m most likely to lose control and all sense of balance and wisdom, it was clear that something needed to change.
A friend of mine once told me about how she “sets a place” for Jesus at their dinner table. He gets his own place mat, plate, cup and utensils. They do this in order to visually recognize how they welcome him into their home every day and share a meal with him full of gratitude and love. He is part of their home, family and macaroni and cheese dinners!
I thought this was a great idea but I especially liked the idea that Jesus might actually show up before dinner, like any guest would. Maybe he could sit at the table and help my daughter with her fractions. Perhaps he could listen as my Kindergartener struggled to read her sight words. Maybe he could place his hand on my shoulder as I stir the ground beef. I loved the idea that he could be there, with me- us, during that tough part of the day.
Not only does it make my life easier to turn things over to him but it also reminds me that he’s watching. Have you ever noticed that you’re a better mother when someone else is around? You feel a need to be on your best behavior yet when you’re home alone with your kids; it’s much easier to snap? I’m guilty of this and inviting Jesus to sit at my dinner table every night reminds me that he’s always watching. What’s interesting is that I don’t feel the pressure to perform for him. Knowing he’s there, sipping a cup of tea and smiling, gives me a great amount of comfort. I just hope he likes spaghetti and meatballs!
What do you think? I'm I too depraved for public distribution? Should I be censored?